Lonely Growth

They say it’s better when you bring others along for the ride with you.

Is that always an option?

I feel myself growing and getting closer to making an impact in the world, but are the lonely days worth it?

I’m still letting comparison creep in as I look at my closest friends and see that they are all in relationships.

I’m not getting any younger, and yet, I still have not found the one.

My parents are going through a divorce that will forever change the dynamic of my immediate family and before I know it, it’s possible that my safety blanket could be removed.

If I don’t become successful and continue to grow, what will my life look like?

Will I end up like one of the guys on the street asking for money? Will I move down south with my extended family?

What will I do?

They say if you can make it in New York, you can make it anywhere.

From the bottom of my heart, I believe it.

I’ve seen what it looks like when I take off for vacation.

If you take your foot off the gas here, you will get left behind — and I am well aware of that.

But is the lonely growth worth it?

What’s success if you don’t have anyone to share it with?

I am blessed to have my family and friends in my life, but having that one person is a different feeling. That one person who you don’t hide anything from. That one person that you have no problem talking to everyday. That one person who you would do anything for.

At the age of 26, that’s what I’m looking for.

A person can only go so far alone.

I’ve come a long way, and I still have a long way to go. I know what my past looks like, and I know I don’t want to go back there.

I know it will take time.

I know I have to be patient.

I know I don’t want to settle.

I know God has a plan.

But, it’s tough.

Every single day. It’s tough.

How will I know?

With millions of fish in the sea, how will I know when I found the one that is right for me?

Does the situation have to make sense?

Will I have to sacrifice?

I just don’t know.